♪ Meanwhile the mice endure the wheel~

TL;DR Worrying too much about Fanime, Car maintenance, packing and driving across country within the next few months.

Slightly buzzed right now, laying in "bed" on a blanket on the floor in Lathrop at JEELZ, thinking about how I don't know what I want in life right now. I'm not saying I have nothing to do or that I'm emo or anything. I have SO many choices to make on what I want to do in life/follow right now that it overwhelms me on what path to take.

Cause I need a break, I need a vacation~! AGAIN!

 Something that made my day was running into 7-11 to get a single stamp & having the worker tell me that if I buy 2 kickstarts (Mtn dew energy drinks) for $1.89 each, I'll get a 3rd kickstart, a sandwich & a water free. And it was true! I paid $4 something for a stamp & 3 energy drinks, a cold water bottle & delicious sandwich. That shoulda been like $10.

And we got fancy new pin-pads on our checkstand. If you make an error, it makes a loud buzzing sound that sounds like "DERP!" & so far customers have less trouble using these than our old ones!

This screen has clearer HD than my phone or tv.

So as always, I'm picking up the slack at my store. /rant
  Apparently when I was on lunch, I missed a commotion up front where my manager got hit cause he was stopping 2 African American guys from stealing cigarettes. Yes, these guys snuck up into the service center & stole 2 cartons of cigarettes. And put them under an 18 month old kid sleeping in a stroller! LP stops them & gets the guy into the office with his kid. Cops come, take the guy away after getting the mom to pick up her kid. The guy had just gotten out of federal prison & now has shoplifting & child endangerment charges. Sad.

These guys show up every night when I close.

This sort of shit (on top of several other things) is happening at my store / Stockton every single day and is the reason I need to get out.

ASMR & triggers

So for those who don't know ASMR stands for Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response. Basically it is a pleasant tingling sensation felt in the head, neck, spine or other parts of the body in response to stimuli. The best way for me to describe it, is ask if you get tingles when random people brush your hair? If you do, that's what it is, except you can also get it just from sounds.

Lots of people can get it just from hearing random tapping or scratching sounds. I personally feel tingles when people are brushing my hair, sometimes when I hear people playing with a brush or brushing their own hair, from people gum chewing, from people leaning in close and whispering to me in certain ways, from spray bottles, from people writing little notes on paper and folding them up. Etc. This is not sexual! I do not feel turned on by this, I just feel pleasant and happy. (There is a common misconception outside the community that people get turned on by watching these videos, maybe some do, but I don't.)



So far my favorite ASMR'ers are:  Gentlewhispering,  Sweetseductiveasmr,   Malesoothe,  SoftWhisperings
Mostly cause of their accents & personality & they caused the most triggers.

 My first ASMR video.

The response I got from the ASMR community is very positive and I might do more of these kinda videos (although, I'll still post whatever random videos I still do make that have nothing to do with this)

So it feels weird sharing this little tidbit of information about me but yes ASMR is something I listen to on random nights on my iphone to help me fall asleep. Something like this just proves how fascinating the brain really is and proves much more why I wanna major in Psychology.

Random things on my mind in just the past few minutes

So right now I'm getting ready to go to Wal-mart (which is another company I hate) but they are cheap and I'm poor so yeah, plus they have more stuff than what I needed to get at Raleys (very rarely do I go to Wal-mart to food shop, I mainly go to Raleys that's right THERE next to me, but I'm making an exception this once) and possibly a Rave out in Galt tonight with some friends?

(Trying on clothes at Love Culture)

I alsooo had fun on Kazumi's birthday this past Monday :] Her aunt paid for me to get my eyebrows threaded after I unsuccessfully tried to get them waxed all week! (The lady by my work wasn't there). We also had Chucks, went to Arden Fair Mall, Chick-Fil-A, World Market and Sky High Sports!

I'm playing Ragnarok again! The server was DDOS attacked but I got my levels back and farmed most of my shit back already. I also paid for a Fallen Angel Wing with a donation. Yeah, I'm sad spending money on a virtual game but people do that on Gaia, people do that on League of Legends. I have spent more on LoL and I don't even play!!!

I need to make loading screens for the server and need to stop being lazy about it. I have till the 14th ahh. I have 2 days left of Vacation.