Could you check my pulse for me. To see if I'm alive.

So I lasted barley a month at Hobby Lobby. I thought I was getting the hang of the place & starting to make friends with 2 of my coworkers there. But I had the worst anxiety going in every day. Never felt that at a job before. And I got written up for one register mistake which I knew was my fault though I had no idea I did anything wrong at the time. But it felt like 3 of the managers didn't like me & had it out for me. So when I was about to get written up a 2nd time for supposedly not ringing up a feather worth $3.99 out of the dozens that a customer had bought & came to return, I voluntarily quit on the spot & told my manager off. She didn't care & had a coworker escort me out of the store.

The manager that had hired me had been cold since the day I had an interview with her. Out of me & 2 girls that were hired the same time, I lasted the longest and forced myself to resign. I heard my manager call a customer a bitch for accidentally bumping into her. And my manager also picked on us what we ate for lunch. Plus she said I couldn't do warehouse work as that was "guys only". Most of the people there are a bit crazy & as weird as it feels right now, I'm glad I quit.

Out of my 7 years of retail combined, this just surprises me. I ask myself "how did I fuck up so bad?" but as my brother put it, "Hell, even Taco Bell would treat you better" which I agree with. And Matthew hugged me & assured me they're just crazy & the only mistake I could make is how bad I drive in Grand Theft Auto 5. Kayla told me that Hobby Lobby is only good for getting Copic Markers at xD

At least I get paid a full check tomorrow.

So I'm back to applying places. Hot Topic, Old Navy & other places called while I had my job but I didn't return calls partially because the places that I did try to schedule interviews with, couldn't schedule me during my Hobby Lobby shifts. For a place I ended up quitting in the end. I called places back and they said they'll take another look at my application and call again. So here's hoping to that.

My brother Kevin walked into my room & mentioned he felt bad. That I came out here & all I'm doing is sitting in my room, back on the laptop applying places & don't get to go out. I have gone out a couple times, but not too much is going on atm as everything I'm looking forward to is later in this month (Pokemon X, Halloween party, Zombie run, Matthews Bday) & November (Lots of movies, Thanksgiving).

I should have my car here around the end of this month. My parents sold the house and have to be out by October 15th. Apparently I found out 10 mins before being dropped off at the airport in August that my parents were planning to move out here but they were waiting on me to leave/make the first move.

It feels weird that now I can't just fly back to Stockton and visit everyone as easily with my parents moving as well.

And that makes me a little sad deep inside.

I just realized it will be 2 months officially together for me and Matthew on his Birthday October 28th.

:o I want a Pomsky!