And you know it's begun from the crack of the guns & the screams from the miles of babes

The summer is ending quite excellent, well I went on a rafting trip in the same raft with Jill, Hemi, Cory, Michie, Michelle, Edwin and Aaron xD I almost drowned at one point (not really I had a life jacket on but the current was trying to push me away pretty fast) and mud wrestled at another point. The rafting trip was fun and really crazy so I'm looking forward to next year on the American River.

I also got a labret piercing. It's still healing. At least my store manager saw it and told me to take it out when the supervisors come in. So i guess I'm in the clear, but I hope it doesn't get infected. I'm switching the piercings much more than I should.

Classes started again. I like my math 017A class so far I think, except for I'll have to solve problems and present them to the class eventually. I'm waiting for my book to come in. I also like weight training and hope to get stronger this semester.

Right now I'm listening to BBC podcasts, because someday I would love to speak with a British accent xD

I applied to Chico State! :]

I mean, I still gotta be accepted but still. I have a good feeling about it!

My parents don't seem excited for me at all =/ of course, then again they have their own issues to deal with. This is my life, I have to make the best happen for myself.

Today I cleaned up my room, my hardwood floor is all slippery now cause I wiped it cleaaan with lemon furniture wipes.

I also made mix tapes for Prizm, since I still haven't gotten around to buying and installing a CD player after having Prizm for a year now. Another costly expense for the future.

I'm working 45 hours this week. How lovely. I will have a nice check but I have bills to pay with it so not like it will matter. xD Best to work now while I'm not in school.

I passed math! JUST BARLEY! When I saw I had exactly 70% after I retook my final, I cried tears of happiness.

Now just my plant sci final to study for. ;D 

I'm working 38 hours this week, I don't mind cause I gotta save for that tattoo and it's pretty much Summer now so I'll have more free time in a way. I'm taking online classes over Summer. I don't mind cause they go FAST!

Some things I never do...all about my flaws

So this is how ugly I look at night after a long day and taking off my contacts, make up etc.

(Did not use photoshop!)

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My glasses are so effin thick >_< and I have bad acne. I find it funny when people complain about one random pimple but have pretty clear skin and I've had hundreds of pimples myself and still get them, plus all those ice pick scars and blemishes. My skin suckss. And I've tried tons of shit for it and seeing a dermatologist didn't help any. But I remember Michelle telling me how clearer my skin looks compared to when I was in high school and that the little scars on my face give me character. If that's true... If I could change 3 physical things about myself, it would be to have no acne, laser eye surgery to see perfectly and to not have kyphosis/scoliosis. I wouldn't get a boob job, I wouldn't get any cosmetic surgery. I like the way I look except for my facial skin, not being able to see without correction and my spinal cord that was not under my control.

Now today is a do all math, and plant science day. Basically finals. When I said this was the hardest semester at Delta, I wasn't kidding. If I had the same mentality that I did when I first started Delta, I woulda given up on this semester long ago due to everything I had to do so far. But I've matured since then.  I fight till the end.

Was it a dream?

The power went out at work tonight. Ahh yes, it was amazing. But then I was shortly off after wards.

Tomorrow will be my last day to pull out weeds for my vegetables and final grade. Kazumi helped me yesterday and I'm gonna see how much the weeds have grown in 2 days. Lol

I need to gather my work to put together my notebook. This long semester is finally starting to conclude!

Kazumi got me into the anime Nana. So I plan to get all comfy tonight and watch that in bed ;O

Black Ops double experience is this weekend + new maps.

I needa see Tony again about my tattoo xP prolly won't get it till early June/vacation time?

So take me back in time, to another world.

Soo Kayla made me a much better Tiger design.

I'm gonna take that to Tony tomorrow and I would get it exactly the way it is, but we needa figure out a color scheme and then I have to save money to get it @_@

Yesterday I went up to the mountain area with Kayla and her family, watched her aunt get married and we hung out in a tent while it rained a lot. I got a foxy tail ^^ 

We went to Denny's later on, Kayla's brother had the Bacon Sundae X_X

Vlog >_> 

I'm exhausted lately haha but I've been excited for the upcoming month. Only 11 out of 60 math hw's left! The semester is coming to a close soon. I'll take an English class over Summer school I suppose and maybe a criminal justice course if I feel like it?

Applying to schools on August 1st if the state budget allows it. All I have to take next semester is my final math and basically any art class. Also plan to take weight training with Kayla to get more in shape. I felt like I rushed getting out of weight training in the past, but this time I wanna stay and use the full time to gain muscle.

My work out plan for the summer includes DDR! xD I need to look for a small nice bike.

Hell dwells in Ice

Finally got OKAMIDEN! :3 so I've been playing that for a little over two hours so far, and mostly I like it. Feels just like the original game with the sound effects and characters and gameplay. Only difference is the tiny screen and not as good graphics but still pretty good for a DSi.

Took my Plant Sci midterm today, so I hope I did ok on that. Also Karate went well earlier this evening. At the end I had to demonstrate for all my peers, one of the basic moves I'm learning. The teacher said he likes my aggressive high kick and can't wait to see me progress further. Also says I am tough xD

I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was.

xD I got a postcard from Chico State. Its pretty (well the top part is)

Thursday night, I started my Karate class, it was fun. I was introduced to everyone-they were all friendly and had strong confident handshakes. I trained with a brown belt lady, learning the 5 basic moves for white belt. She enjoyed training me because I learn fast.

After work yesterday, I went to Kazumi's and took her with me when I signed up for Karate for two months. We went to Sakura and I got some Calpico and creamy pan bread's. Later on, we took a run to Colonial Heights and waited forever to use the swing set cause baseball kids had already occupied them right as we got there. I bought a new overhead light for Prizm in the mean time. Once we got to the swing set, it was dark and the swings were really squeaky x_X so we went back home and Kazumi retook her math test again and we just hung out.

Okamiden finally shipped so I guessed the waiting game paid off. I can't wait to play it, even though I know I need to work on math. Math which I'm about to start right now. xP Less than two more months and hopefully I'll never have to look at Algebraic equations the same way for the rest of my life.

I need to learn how to tie my uniform lol.

Go insane, go insane.

After Plant Sci class, I got to Kayla's house and ordered a waffle to go, and didn't eat it till after we spent over an hour pulling out the weeds growing on my vegetable row up in Manteca that I needed to weed out  for  my grade in Plant Sci. My kale didn't grow so I hope I don't get docked for just pulling all the weeds up in that area.

 Big thanks to Kayla for helping me get rid of all those weeds!

There was a weed that stung! And I ended up getting sunburned.

We went to Chucks, their hamburgers are always good :3 and went to Best Buy so she got Tron which we watched on Blu-Ray. So beautiful that movie is. Best OST, good visuals. My eyes kinda trip out sometimes watching it.

I almost kept falling asleep on Kazumi's bed xP after Tron was over. 

I wanna take Karate. Honestly, I've always wanted to take Karate since I was little or some kind of Martial Arts science but my parents put me in Gymnastics from 3-6th grade instead. Gymnastics was cool but I quit in 6th grade because they wouldn't let me advance past level 3 and also because all the girls were getting really preppy and I didn't fit in.

I think Karate would help to get my mind off things, help me work out more, relieve stress and build confidence. So I'm gonna call around Stockton tomorrow, I think I already found the place I may like with a free trial class so we'll see...

Kazumi's Birthday was awesome! I picked up Kate and we met at Domo's Japanese Restaurant, I ordered Chicken Teriyaki and the guy cooked delicious food in front of us :3 and afterward we went Cosmic Bowling.

I went bowling once before in my life around 7th grade, but not really cause I didn't really play then (we went on a field trip and had gutter lane bumpers), so this felt like the first time I ever went bowling and I SUCKED lol 

Kazumi kept saying stuff about touching sweaty balls.

But I still had lots of fun, and Kazumi and I tried to play a sad Pump It Up machine with only 3 songs and we were confused cause it's not DDR, especially with that "STOMP" in the middle. I also spent hella money on temporary tattoos lol

We also went to Wal mart. Maaan I wanna have a room of play balls someday! I bought more pony beads to make kandi type bracelets and we all made our own.

Jewel of lifeeeee

So I'm sick, and according to the pharmicist at my work, I have that "bug" that's been going around. Coughing up green phlegm. Grosss.

I also missed another quiz today in Plant Science, yaay the second time this has happened cause my alarm didn't' go off! I really wish it was spring break now but that is next week. Then I went to meet up with Samielyn and two of our coworkers didn't wanna play Basketball anymore.

After I thought about it, it was kinda windy so it would have effected how we played anyways, but yeah to go out to get pumped and play Bball and then I went out for nothing...

But it's ok, I might just hang out with Kazumi. I'm dl-ing a bunch of the Pokemon movies we never saw on torrent atm.

I  feel bad inside because I'm supposed to be doing evil algebra right now. *stab* But  I feel all sad inside so I can't concentrate right now. It's all due by this Friday night plus the test @_@

Funny how I feel for you, like a fool I'm into you. You washed away my insecurity.

The other day after a long day in Plant Science-(where we spent 4 hours straight separating sand, silt and clay from our soil samples and recording percentages) Robby and I spotted an art fair at our college so we walked in and I ended up buying a Starlight Lamp.

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It came with everything except the light bulb x_X

Looks pretty nice doesn't it?

Yesterday after work, I went to Kayla's and we traded Pokemon so now I have my shiny Entei on Pokemon Black. We hit up Toys R Us and I bought a Blacks Ops Poster that I never saw before and a Sonic CD player. I just bought an AUX cord for my MP3 to connect to it on Amazon as well as a wall hugger extension cord since the cord is really short.

But so far, it sounds amazing with CDs!   :]

I had a dream, that we flew on Golden Wings

I went on a field trip to Camanche Dam with my Plant Science class, although I'm not exactly sure if we even saw the Dam? xD

I got to third prestige on Black Ops! So lame. 

And I don't know what you want from me, but I don't wanna be perfect anymore...

 Does my mom not know how hard it was just to transfer to Stockton S-mart from Tracy Savemart? And that's closeby.

I'll try to transfer anyways.

I should take a road trip up to Chico sometime xD!

Time to study for Plant Science midterm next Tuesday.

♫And I how miss someone to hold, when hope begins to fade...

I only applied to SJSU this past Fall and I have small hopes of getting in. =/

They only accept full upper division transfers and I won't have my upper math done by then. And on top of that, now they only accept students from the Santa Clara county area.

So if I get accepted, awesome. If not, I'm giving up my dream of becoming a Spartan.

This whole afternoon I've been looking up stuff on Sac State's website. The newspaper said legislature is pushing Sac state to accept more students and students who go to Delta have a high chance of going there. 

So my plan for next Fall is applying to Sacramento with a Criminal Justice major.

My other choice is Chico state with a Psychology major.

I can go into law enforcement with pretty much any bachelors degree according to the experts.. 

I hope I get into some 4 year school. By the time I apply for more schools next Fall, I'll be full upper division. And I'll be 500x more confident        :]

Random Confessions:

People who walk slow, really really annoy me. Like ok, fine, you have nothing important to do or no where to be but I have somewhere to be and a life and if you and your friends are walking in front of me down some aisle in a grocery store or in front of me at Delta or the mall and there's a ton of space in front of you and I can't squeeze by you or go around you, then I tend to get pissy xD I like to walk fast most of the time.

Gamerscore and seeing your friends online on Xbox Live made gaming more exciting but also made me dislike gaming more at the same time. Now on any console I expect to see friends online but that's not the case...

I grew up with trance/techno, electronica and ambient sounds, thanks to my brother so those genre's of music will always stick with me n__n

Avenged Sevenfold is my boyfriends favorite band and one of my favorite bands.  I didn't automatically like A7X right away.  I had already stored all of A7X music in my iriver and I'd always skip their songs at first cause I didn't feel like listening to them. Then walking to the bus stop one day, my iriver was about to die and I knew if I lit up the screen to change the song, the battery would die. So I walked to 'a little piece of heaven' and thought...'this is really catchy.' I listened to it all and my iriver died. Then i couldn't wait to get home so I could listen to it again and eventually other songs and that was when I started to really like Avenged Sevenfold. :] I've seen them in concert twice, almost three times.

I love being creative, doing art and drawing! I HATE art classes most of the time. I don't mind having guidelines for a project but I just hate being demanded to draw something by a deadline and having it graded so harshly when I just like to do my own thing, in my own time and it comes out a lot better than what I had to make in class.

^Not to brag but for example, I'm supposedly so good at art, that in Art 2, I was put straight into AP art and I had a crazy teacher who demanded I make 35 high quality art pieces by May for the AP test. Ugh.

5 hour energy's make me hyper and happy. No energy drink can do that and no other food has done that to me. I can be REALLY EFFING LOUD and off the wall on a 5 hr so i try to drink them on the days where I'm just worn out and still gotta work. I would drink them more often but I don't wanna grow immune to them.

I have tried every flavor of Vitamin water, the only one I can not stand is the Acai blueberry.

Tigers are my favorite animal and I plan to get a tiger tattoo soon as my first tat.

Berlin Wall is my favorite map on Black Ops.

My favorite Pokemon has to be Arcanine or Growlithe. Others I really like are Pikachu, Entei and Espeon. And that new crocodile with the sunglasses.

I blame our current economy on almost everything money related or job related.

I really wish that Imag-E could be a manga or anime. It would prolly be like 80 books long and a huge Dvd box set.

After being at Delta for god knows how long, I am actually enjoying Delta more now than ever (I still wanna leave it though but I enjoy learning more now) and just this past year, i actually see myself able to transfer soon instead of just loosely hoping to do so.

I love animals! I hella want a Pomeranian, Balinese cat, German Shepherd, Fennec Fox, Ferret or a hedgehog, those glow in the dark tetra fish and several other cute animals though prolly not all at the same time lol; Even though I really love tigers, I'm not gonna be one of those stupid people who live in a house and try to keep one illegally as a pet and end up getting mauled by it like the people on Animal Planet.

The past couple Thursday nights, I have been snuggling up with Robby and we watch Jersey Shore. YES, I know that show is stupid but idk can't help but watch this season of it. Snooki is my favorite, only because she is so dumb.

I feel like I will never be a complete person till I'm completely out on my own, supporting my own self for every little thing I do. Even though I have a job and a car and pay my own bills and buy my own food, clothes, gas, anything I need basically and even though I go to school and pay for that and have a sweet boyfriend and the awesomest best friend, I still feel like I'm not as far as I should be in life.

dear Red Bull. Where the fuck are my wings?!?!

I haven't posted in awhile.

I was really sick on my birthday last month. I had a fever and congestion and stayed in bed all day and the following days I had off. It sucked.

My bestie gave me the best card of Mizer ever lol

This past week, I was the first one done in Plant Science and the teacher checked it over and said it was perfect, then like Robby and 10 classmates were all huddled over me, trying to copy me or ask me for help. @_@ I felt smart and irritated at the same time.

Then Wednesday, I saw Sanctum in Imax 3D. Good but depressing movie. Too much drowning. Brings back bad memories. But we won't go into that hush hush.

Next week, I get to plant vegetables at the Manteca Farm. I can't wait to see what kinda plants I can grow xD

Like JEEL used to say "Xeno eats plants"

I must go to sleep for I has work all day tomorrow. Ugh.

I want you to notice, when I'm not around. You're so fucking special, I wish I was special.

Today I bought my plant science book & parking permit at Delta. Walking in the Budd parking lot felt nostalgic, Idk why since I still attend the same college. Afterwards, Robby and I looked for new sunglasses for him & I bought a bunch of scented tiny candles at Bath & Body works. The sparkling Mojitio smells sooo good! :]

The other day, Kazumi & I watched Kiki's delivery service. I had never seen that movie before. I should watch all the Ghibli movies someday. The cat Jiji, was my favorite character. I loved his sarcastic remark. Then *spoilers* Jiji loses his voice later on in the  movie cause Kiki loses her witch power. Or maybe cause Jiji got laid ;D But even at the end of the  movie when Kiki regains her witch powers (she's able to fly again) Jiji doesn't speak except for meow. So Jiji probably did lose his voice due to getting laid. Ugh.

 

Well according to Miyazaki Jiji doesn't speak anymore because Kiki has matured beyond talking to her cat at the end of the movie.

I got my hair cut short the other day :3 Cecelia went crazy with my hair. But I still need to dye it. So many people at my work say they like my hair light or haven't seen it light in a long time. Well, I wanna go dark again =/ lol pictures later.

After helping Robby clean & move his room and see him get rid of so much stuff, I really wanna do the same with my own. I own a lot of crap! Maybe I'll start on that tomorrow after work. I also have the urge to keep playing Red Dead Redemption and Undead Nightmare.